Friday, January 11, 2008

Also!

As far as gathering unfamiliar material,

I would like to look into

Meeting with some hymnody people

If we're going that route.

As a group.

It would be pretty fuckin' sweelll.

Asa Actually Posts Something (No fuckin' way!)

It's radical. But it's happening. Oh, it's happening.


So I love you both. That's the first thing.

Second is, that, I just sent emails to Poland.


I didn't tell you guys, but I ended up applying to Village Harmony and I found out recently that I was accepted. They also told me that both Georgia and Ukraine have many open spots if people are still interested. Drop this into your pipes and smoke it.

SO I am thinking many many things. May I share some?


First of all, I am realizing how wonderful wonderful creativity, creating as life is. I spent a lot of this week recording part of a record with a dear friend (I will post it as soon as it's mixed, next week, first I am going to Yosemite...) and realizing just that we can only make with what we have right here, with ourselves, even if we're sick, stupid, lonely, etc. And that's really liberating because then there's nothing holding us back, ever, we're always at home, and ready. Wow. Important thing.

And seeing my Zen teacher and making art is good and full, but parents are at best compassionate fixtures. Rilke says, don't expect understanding, and don't share your fears, but find a feeling that they agree with strongly and share that with them.

That sounds less compassionate than it might be, right?


As far as text goes, I've done the reading except for Kafka on the Shore (I finished Windup instead, will get to Kafka this week), and I've liked everything. Nothing has been like "we MUST put this in", except for parts of V. Woolf.

If Campbell's "Hero" is out of print, read Campbell's "Pathways to Bliss", especially the essay called "personal mythology". If you can't find either, why not read Jung's "Memories, Dreams, Reflections." Or just wait untill school starts and I can loan the Campbell, which is more accessible than the Jung.


In another note, is anyone reading Dickinson?

I've been reading Rilke's non-young poet letters, and they're full of amazing things. I really want him to be a big part of whatever we do, not so much because he himself is so fascinating (which is he), but really because he can be a teacher for all of us about what it is to lead a creative life in a full and honest way. Every time I read the Duino Elegies I discover something new.

Another note, that "Ahead of All Parting" has been published in paperback as "The selected poetry of Ranier Maria Rilke", same translator (Stephen Mitchell) and with an introduction by Robert Hass.

In Los Angeles, I dug up many of the physical excercises from this summer, and I am happy to lead physical work with my dearies. And auditions! Yes.

Anyways, this is getting rambling, but I just wanted to give a huge loving shout of "whoa!" to both of you from the left coast.

Last week I went for a hike in 60 MPH winds and almost got blown off a cliff while shouting "Christ Has Risen" in Russian with my insane friend Bob. It was pretty fucking epic, and I thought of you guys a lot, because we had one of those conversations that goes on and on and on and on and everywhere and nowhere.


Okay, 'tis all. Call me if you're bored, I'd love to talk to either of you, although I'lll be climb/hike etc in YoSEMITE! Yeauh.


Love and Joy,


And Wish our letters good luck to Jarek. Even if we don't go.


Asa

The Benefits of Working at a Catholic Store

Hi guys. I was bored today at work and discovered my new favorite saint:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Guinefort

Saint Guinefort. He's a dog. Also see here for a primary source:

http://www.fordham.edu/halsall/source/guinefort.html

I am really into this story. It's got everything. Religion vs. superstition, the bond between man and animal, snakes (talk about symbolism), betrayal, guilt, remorse, shrines...

Can we talk soon?

-M(uch love)

Sunday, January 6, 2008

Gedney Checks In! (like Dunstin Checks In, but no monkeys, and no Jason Alexander)

I feel bad because Mark sent me a message on facebook telling me, among other things, that I had become distant. He is right. I've been having weird dreams lately, and to boot I feel like my sleep patterns have been off. I don't know how stuff like that affects you guys, but dreams involving real people and weird sleep cycles warp my perceptions for a while, so everything gets warbly. When that happens, I make a little cocoon of movie channels, chocolate, and my cats and don't come out for a little while. I think I'm slowly reemerging.

I've been turning Dubliners and Kafka over a little bit in my mind, and am slowly working through To the Lighthouse. A few things I'm thinking of:
-the parentheticals of deaths in To the Lighthouse. Why? How else could the deaths have occurred? Would that have lessened or increased their impact?
-the gore of Kafka on the Shore, it's explicit and straightforward languages. The phrase "rock hard cock" comes to mind. How is this different/similar to the deaths in Woolf.
-the darkness in Dubliners. Can we put a finger on the mechanism of melancholy Joyce creates? Stories I'm thinking of in particular:
An Encounter
Araby
Eveline
Clay
A Painful Case
The Dead

I'm not asking these to initiate a purely literary discussion, but rather to look at why these works function the way they do, flow the way they do. Also, I love Lily in To the Lighthouse. I just reread her scene with Mr. Ramsey in The Lighthouse section. "What beautiful boots!" I also think the entire section in Time Passes works so well for what we may be exploring.

Also, not on our reading list, but something I discovered while I way this weekend was a little book called Novels in Three Lines by Felix Feneon. They are true stories that were anonymously published in the French Newspaper Le Matin, but they're quite violent and cheeky. IE:
A criminal virago, Mlle Tulle, was sentenced by the Rouen court to 10 years' hard labor, while her lover got five.

Nurse Elise Bachmann, whose day off was yesterday, put on a public display of insanity.

Since childhood Mlle Mehnette, 16 had harvested artificial flowers from the tombs of Saint-Denis. That's over; she's in the workhouse.

A certain madwoman arrested downtown falsely claimed to be nurse Elise Bachmann. The latter is perfectly sane.

Caged, tortured, and starved by their stepmother, the three little daughters of Joseph Ilou, of Brest, now rescued, are skeletal.

Finding her son, Hyacinthe, 69, hanged, Mme Ranvier, of Bussy-Saint-Georges, was so depressed she could not cut him down.

Seventy-year-old beggar Verniot, of Clichy, died of hunger. His pallet disgorged 2,000 francs. But no one should make generalizations.

"To die like Joan of Arc!" cried Terbaud from the top of a pyre made of his furniture. The fireman of Saint-Ouen stifled his ambition.

The guys who wrote these was an anarchist and a publisher. Very private.

Thoughts on our project, and I'm just throwing them out there as honestly as I can:

I think, for simplicity's sake, I would prefer for us to work with Pig Iron this summer. From my end, to go to Europe and back while trying to get a job would be more difficult than getting a job in perhaps New Haven or coming back home, then going to Philly, then coming back to the West coast. Because both of you are going abroad, that might not be the case. Also, and again Asa this is not because I don't trust you, but I know Pig Iron, I know and admire their work, and I know they're really supportive of me and Asa and our trying to make new theater together. I don't know anyone in Poland except for Gey Pin, and I feel like I still don't quite know what we'd be doing in Poland. These are, again, my inclinations, and I can be persuaded.

Additionally, I've been thinking about the work we've been talking about doing, and I wonder if it wouldn't be better if we still do the reading we've planned on, but maybe use songs/text with which we aren't nearly as familiar, and thus don't have many prior attachments or associations with them. Already when I read Emily Dickinson, I have this grandiose idea of what it could be, this over-mystified idea of what her poems are about. I think we should challenge ourselves to find text that really makes us dig and investigate, and isn't something that we've been in love with or fascinated by forever.

We can talk about this tomorrow via phone, of course, and I can't emphasize enough that over the past few years at Wesleyan I hadn't found people I really felt I wanted to collaborate with. Then you two came along, and I finally feel like I won't necessarily leave Wesleyan without some really good friends who are also really great collaborators.

Many hugs, much love,
G.B.